by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.29.2010

I’d like to consider myself a very open-minded person. There’s very few (legal) things that I wouldn’t try at least once.
That doesn’t mean I never have any hesitations, however.
Here’s a list of things I was hesitant to try at first, but I’m glad I did!
- Ice Skate. Because I’m deaf in one ear, my equilibrium is a bit off and I have terrible balance. I feared that I would do nothing but embarrass myself trying to move on ice in shoes with knives on them. But I picked it up quickly, and even learned to ice skate backwards! Doing this in gave me the courage to also try roller-blading out in public.
- Eat sushi. Under-coked and raw fish? Wrapped in seaweed? Eww is what I thought at first. But sushi now happens to be one my absolute favorite foods.
- Buy an eReader device. Wasn’t 100% positive I’d enjoy reading anything other than a physical book – but I love my Nook!
- Write a book with publication in mind. I’ve loved reading and writing since I was a kid, and wrote many novellas, short stories, roleplays and screenplays before I even became an adult. But no one ever really saw them but me and those closest to me, and that was all I’d wanted. But now that I have my first book coming out soon, I’m excited, and I don’t think I can stop trying to publish more.
- Fall in love. I don’t completely open my heart easily, simply because I didn’t trust easily, and didn’t think anybody would truly understand me, anyways. I’m so grateful that somebody (not saying any names
) convinced me to try otherwise …
- Ride the world’s tallest rollercoaster. I’m a thrill-seeking dare-devil … who’s afraid of heights! I mean, this particular coaster shoots you over 400 feet straight into the air – and then tosses you back down at 120mph! CrAzY! Even though I almost died, I’d never felt more alive. (And I’d do it again).
- Jet-ski. I’ve ridden on the back of a motorcycle twice and I was thoroughly terrified both times. So I was quite hesitant to get on a jet-ski – which is a lot like a motorcycle but on water. But I loved it! (Maybe because I was the one actually in control, perhaps)
- Rock Wall Climbing. First off, it’s even harder to do than it looks. But what a workout, and a thrill.
- Jump off a boat into the ocean. I really didn’t think this was a good idea (especially considering that all of the speed boat’s passengers were intoxicated – shhh!), but I gave in to beer – er, peer pressure just that once. It was definitely a memorable experience, though.
- Go camping. Real, rugged camping, on a mountain with no plumbing. I’d never been interested in even play camping in the backyard before that. But I did have a naturally good time! (Don’t need to ever do it again, though)
- Live completely alone. In a state I’d never lived in before, with no one I knew (except my new co-workers) within thousands of miles. I think it was the first time I had to completely take care of myself. For a sheltered, spoiled girl like me, this was a valuable experience, and one I intentionally repeated.
- Divulging my kinkiest secret fantasies. I was hesitant to share them with hubby because some of them just … ain’t right. I have some that I STILL haven’t fully expressed, heh. But if I’d kept them to myself, none of them would have ever been fulfilled.
- Running. I didn’t think I was built for running. I have flat feet (fallen arches) and jiggly parts that would protest whenever I tried to move at a speed faster than a brisk walk or light jog. But then I switched running shoes and began doubling up on the sports bras for better support, and started giving running a full go a couple of weeks ago. And I must say, I’m really enjoying it and it’s benefits!
What about you? Was there anything you were hesitant to try, but glad you did give in and try it?
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.28.2010

This is the seventh installment in the “HOW I WRITE” series I’m participating in every Wednesday with several writers, where we all discuss how we approach writing a book. Every writer has a different process and this project gives us a chance to share and compare ours. Click on the “How I Write” image to find a list of the participating writers and links to their blogs.
Last week we talked about Getting Through The Middle. This week we’ll discuss Revision – How To Begin.
So, I’ve finishing writing the first draft from the beginning to end. And boy is it rough. It’s now time to get ready to revise what I wrote! Honestly, I’m still discovering what does and doesn’t work for me when it comes to revising. I’ve approached the revisions to each of the five books I’ve worked on in the past few years, five different ways. I suspect that as I continue to hone my writing skills, I may modify my revision process further still. But regardless of how – and how many times, exactly – I revise a book, I like to prepare for revisions using the same two steps.
Step 1: Revisit the outline / storyboard I came up with back when I was just starting to write the book. At this point I update it to reflect the story I’ve actually written, instead of the one I thought I was going to.
Since it provides a high-level snapshot of the entire draft, I then analyze the storyboard. Do I think that I captured the themes I wanted to? Did my characters grow as I intended? Did I show any character growth at all? I make note of any major issues identified and scenes/chapters that I know will need a lot of work.
Step 2 : Print out the story. Recently I discovered I can catch errors faster and easier when I first read through a hard copy of the draft and make notes with a pen, than when I try to just dive into typing revisions directly into the book.
I think for a long time I worried about wasting ink and paper on rough drafts. But I have since found that ink and paper are dirt cheap when compared to the cost of the vodka, the medical attention required for the forehead I’ve been banging on the desk, a new desk that hasn’t been banged up by my forehead, and the wigs to replace the hair I tore out while trying to force myself through initial revisions on-screen.
So that’s how I begin to revise. Next week I’ll talk more about the actual revision process. Check out the other participating blogs to see how more writers get ready to revise their work.
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.23.2010

The official release date has been set! SAY MY NAME will go on sale on August 9th, 2010 with Liquid Silver Books. 08/09/10, that’s a cool date, eh? You see that? 8.9.10? **bites lip and snorts at my own geekiness**
But not only is the date cool because it’s in sequential order, but August 9th also happens to be my birthday. Very nice, right?
I’ll post more about it in the coming weeks, but in the meantime here’s the blurb for the book. Also, I’ve created an info page that includes an excerpt from the actual story – check it out!
Blurb for SAY MY NAME, by Tatiana Caldwell. Coming 8.9.2010 to Liquid Silver Books.
There’s much more to the fable of Rumpelstiltskin than you’ve been told …
Due to her father’s constant bragging, word of Anna Miller’s beauty and virtue piques the interest of King Thomas. Upon taking the boasting of her father too literally, the king of Grimbros imprisons Anna and threatens to kill her and her father if she fails to spin straw into gold.
A mysterious and sensual magical being finds himself drawn to the castle – and the beautiful Anna. He offers his help in exchange for the most intimate, precious gifts she could possibly give. Soon Anna finds herself wanting far more than just his help. But he threatens to consume her and all she holds dear.
Unless she says his name.
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.22.2010
Yesterday my husband and I celebrated our 9th year of marriage and 15 total years as a couple. As I’ve confessed more than once online, my love for that man grows more and more each year rather than diminish, so I thought I’d fun instead to post a list of reasons why I’m fictitiously leaving my husband. The reasons themselves aren’t fictitious -he’s truly guilty as charged of everything listed - but the reasons to stay far outnumber the reasons not to, so I’m not really going anywhere.
- He’ll refuse to read a book I recommend just because it’s got a picture of a hunky man on the front or the cover looks too “girly” for him to be seen with it
- Even after 15 years of my complaining, he still leaves his dirty clothes on the floor and the tv on when he’s not watching it
- He scratches and sniffs himself after a good workout or a long day of tending to the yard
- He thinks “Spartacus” is a better show than “Private Practice”
- He tells me “no”. As if he doesn’t have to obey me, or something.
- He thinks “Hot damn, your booty is big!” is a compliment
- He keeps bringing home chocolate (likely a conspiracy for #7)
- Sometimes, he says tells me he can’t because he has a headache. Seriously, what husband does that?
- He farts in the middle of the night – UNDER the sheets with me in it!
- He made me spawn two children that are just as bad as he is
- The children and I often trip over his size 14 shoes when he forgets to put them away
- He keeps getting my socks mixed up with his, wearing them, and stretching them hopelessly out of shape
- I love him too much, can’t imagine life without him. That’s just not right, I’m telling you! Nobody should be so in love!
And there you have it. Valid reasons why I should leave my husband! (*sticks out my tongue at my husband in case he’s looking*)
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.21.2010

This is the sixth installment in the “HOW I WRITE” series I’m participating in every Wednesday with several writers, where we all discuss how we approach writing a book. Every writer has a different process and this project gives us a chance to share and compare ours. Click on the “How I Write” image to find a list of the participating writers and links to their blogs.
Last week we talked about starting The First Draft. This week’s topic is Motivation: Getting Through the Middle Pages.
Perhaps I’m unique in possessing this sentiment – but I actually enjoy writing the middle pages more than any other part of a book. There’s too much stress involved in making sure you’ve opened in the right point in the story and that your “hook” is a good one, and in trying to ensure that you’ve delivered a satisfying ending that appropriately wraps up the tension you’d been building and the climax you’d been leading up to for chapters and chapters. The heart of the story is actually in the middle of the book, and I actually find that I am more motivated to write that part than either the beginning or the end.
The real challenge for me, I believe, isn’t a lack of motivation to write the middle pages. It’s either a) the lack of certainty of what exactly should happen in the middle pages, or b) losing confidence in the story right around the middle. I find that doing a storyboard or outline helps me with potential issue “a”, but potential issue “b” is a more complicated one. Halfway through the first draft of a story I sometimes hit this point where I worry that it’s crap. The writing, the characters, the idea itself – everything. I usually get past this phase of self-doubt by getting feedback from my critique partner or having someone who I know will honestly tell me if the story sucks and if so why (like my husband or a frank friend). Anybody other than me showing a genuine interest in the story is usually the confidence boost I need to keep going.
If I’m still stuck after that, then it’s usually a sign that I either genuinely need a break from that story, or I just need to apply more discipline to get my booty in my chair and my fingers on the keyboard.
Check out these participating blogs to see how other writers find the motivation to make it through the middle pages of a draft. See ya for the next topic: Revision – How to Begin.
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.15.2010

Ever have one of those days at work that are so painful, you almost swear you have the worst job in the world? I was almost there today. But then I thought about jobs that I could have that
really would feel
like the worst jobs ever to me, and I immediately began to feel better about the one I have. Please note that if you have any of these jobs, I mean no offense, of course.
- Jail/Prison Guard (cavity searches and taming angry, confined criminals? no thanks)
- Circus Acrobat (the pressure! the danger!)
- Roofer (I have no balance)
- Gladiator or Cage Match Fighter (you mean I might DIE in the name of entertainment?!)
- Adult Film Star Fluffer (all work, none of the fun)
- Slave / Forced Laborer (sometimes I wonder whether or not I already have this job …)
- Obstetrician (screaming women in painful labors that start at 1 am? booo)
- Street Prostitute (I’m not even comfortable approaching a car just to give a stranger directions …)
- President of the USA (don’t even get me started)
- Fashion Model (seriously, what would I do with all of this booty?)
- Hotel Maid or Hospital Janitor. Zoo Cleaner. Portable Toilet Cleaner. Public Restroom Janitor. (ewww, the germs, the stench, the horror!)
- Star Wars Storm Trooper (you’re considered rather disposable by the Republic, and pretty much guaranteed to die fighting a Jedi)
- Criminal working for a Crime Boss (I never understood why anyone would bother to work for a devious criminal – even if you too are a criminal. Haven’t you seen The Godfather, Carlito’s Way, or the 6 o’clock news? Chances are high that YOUR BOSS MIGHT KILL YOU)
- Bonus: Helen Keller’s Teacher (I mean how do you – how can you – wow!)
I recommend you make your own list of dreadful jobs that you can refer to whenever you’re feeling pretty disgusted at your current one and need an uplift.
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.14.2010

This is the fifth installment in the “HOW I WRITE” series I’m participating in every Wednesday with several writers, where we all discuss how we approach writing a book. Every writer has a different process and this project gives us a chance to share and compare ours. Click on the “How I Write” image to find a list of the participating writers and links to their blogs.
This week’s topic is The First Draft.
Once I’ve completed the 8 preparation steps I discussed during last week’s topic on Starting a New Book, writing the first draft is a rather simple process. I take the outline I created in my spreadsheet and transfer it into a Word document in the format of a book. Sometimes my outlines contain actual snippets of dialog or narrative from scenes, other times there’s only the summary of the events. Either way – I paste it into in my Word document as if they were actual scenes / chapters. By the time I’m actually ready to start drafting, I already have a few thousand words of story with designated scenes and chapters!
So at this point, finishing the first draft is moreso about “filling in the blanks” than anything else. I visit each summary or incomplete scene I already wrote and flesh it out. I do a couple of scenes a day, with each day visiting the last scene I wrote before to make sure it flows smoothly. For instance, on Monday I may flesh out the first chapter. On Tueday, I’ll go over chapter 1 again and then dive into chapter 2. On Wednesday, I’ll revisit chapter 2 before fleshing out chapter 3, and so on. But because I already generally have the entire story laid out, every once in a while I sometimes flesh out scenes out of order. I use Word’s Document Map feature to help me jump from scene to scene and chapter to chapter easily.
That’s it. Actually writing the first draft sounds simple when I write it out. If only it were simple to get my butt in the chair and write every time I’m supposed to … *sighs*
Don’t forget to visit other participating blogs to see how other writers develop characters, plots and imaginary worlds. Come back for next week’s topic: Motivation / Getting Through the Middle.
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.8.2010

I like summer. I really do. I used to like it more when I was younger, and when summer meant a break from school, cool vacations and a chance for a summer-job so I could make some money. Now that I’m a little older and have to earn money year-round and don’t get 3 months of time off from ANYTHING, I can see just as many cons to summer as I can pros.
- The sun is out! / So are the bugs, blegh
- Swimming and waterplay / Swimsuit shopping (loathe it)
- School is out! / Kids complaining about being bored
- Cute, comfy clothes / My not-cute thighs are visible in shorts
- Open toed shoes / My toenails must stay polished
- More hours of sunshine in a day / Same hours of work in day where I can’t go out and enjoy said sunshine
- Hot, shirtless men / I’m stuck in my bra AND a hot shirt
- Flirty summer dresses / Getting hit on by strange men constantly (hmmm … or maybe I kinda do like that?)
- Warm enough to walk around the house naked / Having to put clothes back on to answer the door
- The heat is on! / Feeling sleepy due to the heat and wanting to nap, but can’t because I’ve got work to do
- Getting sweaty / Being sweaty
- Grilling lots of yummy food outside / Working off the calories from pigging out on all of that yummy food
- Vacations! / Paying for vacations
by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.7.2010

This is the fourth installment in the “HOW I WRITE” series I’m participating in every Wednesday with several writers, where we all discuss how we approach writing a book. Every writer has a different process and this project gives us a chance to share and compare ours. Click on the “How I Write” image to find a list of the participating writers and links to their blogs.
Last week we talked about Research. This week’s topic is Starting a New W.I.P. (Work-in-Progress, what we writers like to call a story, novella, novel, article or non-fiction book that we are currently working on) .
The hardest part about starting a new book – to me, anyways – is deciding which story to write next. It’s a fine balancing act between applying some sort of rhyme and reason (trying to time the market, reacting to something specific a certain editor or agent is looking for) and going with your gut (which idea sparks the most passion in you right now?).
Once I’ve selected the project to dive into, I tend to follow these eight preparation steps:
- Write the plot summary. This is a one-paragraph description of the book, which describes the who, what, why and conflict. This is the trick I use to try to determine whether or not my idea has the potential to be marketable BEFORE I begin writing it. I believe that if I can’t describe my book/story in a few clear, powerful sentences, then I need to rework the plot idea until I can. Because if *I* can’t easily “sell” my story idea, then neither will an agent, editor or publisher.
- Brainstorm themes. Why do I want to write this story? What themes, concepts, feelings or lessons do I want to convey through this tale? What is the point?
- Determine the genres. I think it’s important to know what genre(s) and sub-genres the story will be upfront. Knowing my story’s themes and genre helps me generate the proper mood and tone for this work.
- Create the characters. This is where I give identities to the people who will populate my world, and fill in my character sheets.
- Take world-building notes, if applicable. For a refresher on how I do world-building and develop characters and plots, go back to my second installment of this series.
- Outline or Storyboard. I’m a big-time plotter, and my outline is more like a storyboard of sorts: I write out a description of all of my scenes and have them side-by-side. Some writers use index cards, or special writing software to do this. But not me – I have a Storyboard spreadsheet (yes, another one) I created to lay out all of the scenes my story will include. I capture the date/time and location the scenes happen, and whose perspective they are in. I also have it so I can plot the growth of my characters. If details or story prose jump out at me at this stage I go ahead and jot it down under the scene in which it belongs. Because I tend to change my mind about scenes or entire chapters once I actually start writing or get to revising, a storyboard is never “final” until my book is. But it is essential as a guide for me to stay on track once I start writing. I have an example of my Storyboard Template in my Freebies section.
- Determine the potential markets. Now that I know the plot, tone and mood, genres, and have an idea how long the story will be based on the number of scenes I have created in my Storyboard, I can determine the potential agent and/or publisher markets I can submit this story to when I’m done. Why is this important, you may ask? Because I may write a book intended for, say, a Harlequin category a bit differently than I would a book I was writing for an erotic ePublisher.
- Conduct any necessary major research, which we talked all about in last week’s installment.
Not until I’ve completed or at least attempted to complete these steps do I consider myself prepared to begin the first draft, which is next week’s topic.
Don’t forget to visit other participating blogs to see how other writers prepare when starting a new book!
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by ** Tatiana Caldwell ** on July.6.2010
Half of 2010 is over already – can you believe it? I hardly can – boy did time fly. At the beginning of the year, I made a list of 10 goals I want to accomplish in 2010, and now seems like a good time to do a review to see how I’ve been measuring up.
- Write at least 1500 words every day – STRUGGLING. Unfortunately, I haven’t been as consistently prolific with my fiction writing as I would like. However, I’m rearranging my schedule and priorities to help better achieve this goal.
- Finish 6 novellas – BEHIND A BIT. At this point in time, I have 2 novellas finished, 1 novella needing revisions, and another novella halfway drafted. Not too bad – I’ve got 6 more months to finish the 2 already started and to write 2 more – if I can get diligent about sticking to goal #1 though I should be able to do it.
- Write 1 novel – BEHIND A BIT. Although I hadn’t planned to start drafting the novel until September, I wanted to have all 6 novellas finished first. Depending on how much progress I make over the next two months, I may have to consider either changing my goal of 6 novellas this year to 5 or have less time than I wanted to finish the novel.
- Redesign this website – DID IT. You’re looking at it now! (and I’m quite proud of how it turned out, I must say)
- Blog more frequently – DOING IT. I’ve been posting at LEAST once a week for several months now – a big accomplishment for me. I think I’m finally getting into a groove.
- Lose 25 pounds – BEHIND A BIT. The good news is I’ve lost a few inches and a dress size already so far. The stressful news is that half the year has passed, but so far I’ve only reached 1/4 of my weight-loss goal, despite the fact that I’ve been very successful at goal #7 …
- Exercise at least 4 days a week – DOING IT. I’ve been consistently working out 4 or 5 days a week for 40+ minutes for the past several months, and even managed to get my husband to join me most of the time. It is now a household routine.
- Submit a writing project every month – BEHIND A BIT. Of the 6 months this year I’ve probably submitted something 4 of the months. Not bad, but not quite there.
- Get Published – DOING IT. Although my book hasn’t been released yet, I do have a publishing contract, a book cover, and have completed a first round of edits. I am going to be a published author in 2010!
- Go to at least 1 Writing Conference – DID IT. I went to my very first writing conference this April and had a great experience!
How are your 2010 goals and resolutions looking?
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